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My social life has been dwindling a lot lately. I go out only a couple of times a month and I really don't chat with people (whether by texting, over the internet, etc.) very much anymore. I feel isolated from my various online friends and I feel a bit distant from my offline friends. I have mixed feelings about it. Part of me is okay with it and is fine with just hiding away in my room and not talking to anyone, but another part of me is very much bothered by it...but doesn't really know where to begin with fixing it. I'll join IRC to chat with online friends, but I can't seem to get back into the habit of joining for more than a day or two in a row. I'll text a friend or even go out, but I can't seem to get involved with plans on a frequent, regular basis. I'm not sure what the problem is. I care but I don't care. I don't know. I do miss talking to certain people, both offline and online.

On another note, I guess there is another thing I could write about. For some reason I feel really weird writing about it (even though I do have a very, very limited audience here!). I guess I feel weird mostly because I'm confused and unsure. For a while I've been rather confused about my sexuality. I know that I am not gay, but I don't really think I'm straight either. I feel weird about it because I feel like it's something I should've figured out before. Am I actually bisexual? I don't know. All I can say is that I am definitely open to figuring it out.

Anyway, the fall semester starts in a few days and I'm not even remotely prepared for it. I only just got a couple of textbooks today and I have a list of the rest of the ones I need to acquire. I don't have any other school supplies. I don't have my schedule memorized. I can't even really remember which classes I'm taking or which buildings they're all in. I'm kind of in a vague state of denial about summer being over, haha.