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Finals are over. All of my grades were finally posted yesterday. I did well in most classes. It was one of my better semesters, which is a bit interesting since my attendance was so poor in a few classes.
So now it is summer. For some reason it doesn't really feel like summer. Usually I feel like there's more buzz and excitement surrounding it...or, at the very least, that there's a bigger sense of finality when the semester officially ends. I sort of feel like I'm just floating around. I don't know how to explain it.
I don't really have any plans for my summer yet. Usually I have some sort of trip or event to look forward to, but so far I don't have anything like that planned for this summer. I will need to get a job, but I wanted to take a little time after finishing finals to just relax and then prepare myself for the job search and eventual job interviews, which will be major sources of stress and anxiety!
I hung out with a couple of friends over the weekend. We went to a movie. They also invited me to hit the town with them, but for some reason I just felt all panicky so I went home. Now I sort of regret it since one of those friends was only in town for the weekend and probably won't be back in town for months. Oh well. I've accepted that we just aren't close anymore, but I could admittedly try a little harder. I'd like to see some of my other friends, but I guess they've mostly been busy...or maybe they're just not interested.
I've been in fairly decent moods lately. I'm not really sad but I'm not really happy either. Finishing finals was a relief, but now I just feel sort of lost, like I'm stuck between phases or eras or something. I should fill my days with more useful activities in the meantime.
Life is just so weird. I keep going for long car rides and just staring out into the countryside, thinking about stupid things and big concepts. I guess it's all a waste of time, but I vaguely enjoy doing it. I focus so much on these big ideas about life, existence, and consciousness and what they really are, but I don't know if it's even worth thinking about. If it's keeping me from actually doing real things with my time, then maybe it's a counterproductive waste.
Well, anyway, I have decided that I want to watch a bunch of movies during my upcoming free time. I used to watch so many movies, but then I kind of stopped...I guess in favor of TV? I have been wanting to get back to movies, though, since I always loved them. I should watch one tonight.
So now it is summer. For some reason it doesn't really feel like summer. Usually I feel like there's more buzz and excitement surrounding it...or, at the very least, that there's a bigger sense of finality when the semester officially ends. I sort of feel like I'm just floating around. I don't know how to explain it.
I don't really have any plans for my summer yet. Usually I have some sort of trip or event to look forward to, but so far I don't have anything like that planned for this summer. I will need to get a job, but I wanted to take a little time after finishing finals to just relax and then prepare myself for the job search and eventual job interviews, which will be major sources of stress and anxiety!
I hung out with a couple of friends over the weekend. We went to a movie. They also invited me to hit the town with them, but for some reason I just felt all panicky so I went home. Now I sort of regret it since one of those friends was only in town for the weekend and probably won't be back in town for months. Oh well. I've accepted that we just aren't close anymore, but I could admittedly try a little harder. I'd like to see some of my other friends, but I guess they've mostly been busy...or maybe they're just not interested.
I've been in fairly decent moods lately. I'm not really sad but I'm not really happy either. Finishing finals was a relief, but now I just feel sort of lost, like I'm stuck between phases or eras or something. I should fill my days with more useful activities in the meantime.
Life is just so weird. I keep going for long car rides and just staring out into the countryside, thinking about stupid things and big concepts. I guess it's all a waste of time, but I vaguely enjoy doing it. I focus so much on these big ideas about life, existence, and consciousness and what they really are, but I don't know if it's even worth thinking about. If it's keeping me from actually doing real things with my time, then maybe it's a counterproductive waste.
Well, anyway, I have decided that I want to watch a bunch of movies during my upcoming free time. I used to watch so many movies, but then I kind of stopped...I guess in favor of TV? I have been wanting to get back to movies, though, since I always loved them. I should watch one tonight.
